this is the first time i have ever practiced so much and hard..well i would say i was quite a slacker. only moving on to intermediate class that i realized those who perform well in class actually practice frequently at home =x so i should make the effort to practice too since i have the time but just no money (the ingredients are expensive you know~~~) =x
when i made the decision to come over to LCB London i told myself i will have so much time and energy to do things. and yet time is never enough. i am always busy with God knows what. tired from stuff which i have no idea what as well. this is crazy and zoom it's August already!!! reflection reflection reflection.. =(
anw as i was saying i had been practicing my exam pieces at home. and geez can i repeat myself again, i just hate washing and cleaning up. the entire kitchen looks like it had been swept by the tornado. seriously insane!!!
during my practices, everything just didnt turn out well. sponge overfold, couldnt finish quite on time, cake looks ugly. whatever i did, doesnt seem to turn out well at all and it kinda got me really frustrated and upset. it felt like the more i try the worst things become.
i am able to deliver when i bake the cake without trying hard and does it freely. be it the nice risen genoise sponge, the tempered chocolate, the marzipan rose, piping of choc, etc. i can do all of them without much thoughts. when i actually put my heart to do it and wants to perfect it so badly, everything turns into a mess. and the feeling just sucks big time. i hope it will all be good during exam. i do not want to panic or screw up anything. seriously i do not have much confidence even though i have practiced quite a lot...i seriously wanna do well and perfect the making of the cakes.
'because you expect too much. because you want to perfect it. because you do not want to lose. because you try too hard.'
yes, i think i tried too hard.
ending off with pictures of my 'rose' practice this morning before my afternoon lesson.
btw i used dough made from flour and water instead of marzipan as my marzipan had dried out from my over usage the night before which for your info, didnt turn out anywhere near to be a rose.
obviously using dough made from flour and water is different from using marzipan. the petals have to be thicker so that it will not fall off. however, i think this is quite a good idea and a cheaper way of practicing as my main aim is to figure out how i should place my petals together to create a rose that looks that looks like...ermmm a ROSE :)
i will be making Sabrina and Opera tomorrow. thinking about it is already very tiring let alone making them =x crossing my fingers everything will turn out fine.
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